Noises creep in through the open window tearing at my ear drums
The buildings, they are so tall
And I am just a crack in the pavement
Meant for walking over and to be used as shelter for weeds
I'm a nervous wreck
I'm a nervous wreck
My mind ticks and ticks like a time bomb
But I have lost the countdown
My stomach twists and turns and clenches
I cry out from the anxiety
But I am always so mute
No one hears
But no one was meant to
I am a suicidal cat, but don't worry, I still have eight of my nine lives left
I am a landslide with no injuries but my own
And oh, what a beautiful disaster I can be
I'm a nervous wreck
I'm a nervous wreck
Popping pills to counteract the chemicals to counteract the tears
This battle is one I have fought alone for so long
A trench war inside my brain
And my heart
Perhaps I keep myself sick in the head because I don't know anything else
My entire world is the sickness inside of me
What if I can't let that go?
My words are my shield and my sword
I can hide behind them
Is there a sick girl typing on this keyboard?
Or a poet longing for their next cigarette?
Maybe a writer planning their next climax
Or even a child lost inside their own fantasy world
Make believe ain't so bad
I'm a nervous wreck
Oh, I'm a nervous wreck
Home is nowhere but where tired eyes can rest
Where aching limbs can be still
It's south where the birds fly
The migration pattern of whales
How can a mime cry out for help?
I practice my lines in the mirror every morning
I'm just looking for a release that doesn't involve fresh skin or tears
My watch continues to circle and my mind shuts off
But moments like these I feel as though I may explode
"You just need to find a way to cope."
What do you know?
Keep swallowing that medicine, those vitamins, keep talking, keep going
You believe in quick fixes and goals
I believe in the smell before rain
The first inhale of a cigarette
Shooting stars
Kisses under blankets
I am crashing waves
Isn't it tragic?
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